this is the medley put together by cynthia to encourage friends and missionaries doing the Lord's work. meant for WIP to sing together but we're taking a short hiatus for now. nonetheless, it was a blessed time recording this together that day!

may we all be fervent in serving Him wherever He places us! 
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Lyrics:
From the mountains to the valley,
From the rivers to the sea,
Every hand that reaches out,
Every hand that reaches out to offer peace
Every simple act of mercy
Every step till kingdom come
Every hope in every heart will
Speak what love has done

Until the whole world hears
Lord we are calling out
Lifting up Your name for all to hear the sound
Like voices in the wilderness we're crying out
And as the day draws near
 Lord teach us how to testify to Your love

For as long as i shall live,
I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences
Where words are not enough
With every breath i take
I will give thanks to God above
For as long as i shall live
I will testify

Oh ready yourselves,
Ready yourselves
Let us shine the light of Jesus in the darkest night X2

Coz i'm alive I dont wanna die
I dont wanna waste another day or night
I know there's something more
Than what we're living for
I see it in the stars
I feel it on the shore
I know that so

Until the whole world hears
Lord we are calling out
Lifting up Your name for all to hear the sound
Like voices in the wilderness we're crying out
And as the day draws near
 Lord teach us how to testify to Your love

i'm thankful to God that today 2 friends shared with me the same verse just when i needed it. His love never fails.

And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.-- 2 Cor 12:9

never by my strength, only by Your grace.

thank you, Lord.

going to do the book of Mark with my girls tomorrow. one of them requested, so thank God for online material that i can always extract lessons from, knowing how time consuming lesson preparations can be. praying that it'll be a meaningful less than 8 weeks of being some-kind-of-a-discipler to them, knowing i'm going to graduate very soon.

school's been pretty bleak, honestly. at the career fair i went to today, i couldn't find what i was looking for. more like i didn't know which place would be looking for a person like me. i don't regret not going for the previous career fair which had more prospective companies, partly cuz i had no choice having to go for all my lessons, and because i probably wouldn't have found anything either. simply because now, i really don't know what i want. 

i'm driving myself crazy with all my brain's uncertainties. but i'll let God show me in His time. besides, i just got reminded yesterday to keep knocking, keep searching, and i'll definitely find something. i'm assured that God never withholds the good things from His children. amen?

a few more things that have happened recently constantly cause me to want to go into escape mode. thank God for a friend in crusade who could identify. hers is probably worse though, with a new perspective she got recently, after certain experiences she had elsewhere to compare with where she is now back in reality.

maybe the conclusion of the whole matter of all these shenanigans is that we should never compare, nor to expect too much. maybe don't even expect the least of things- that's if you don't want to get hurt by wherever, whomever, or whatever you put your blood, sweat, tears and time to. but that's humanly impossible, unless our brains were a block of wood or filled with coconut water.

alright, i think i'll write again when i'm less "wearied by the footmen".... 

anyone with an iphone or ipad, please download star walk or sky view. TOTALLY AWESOME APPs!!!!!!!

in case you're wondering if i've gone mad, i was supposed to have a star gazing session yesterday but it turned out to be more of a promotion of iphone and ipad applications. i expected more than 2 telescopes to make it to the football field. but my professor had one that looked like an ipad, placed nicely on a tripod. so, i downloaded the app, signed attendance and went home happy.

just applied for a job at a special school as Assistant Teacher. will update on the outcome. i prayed about it and i'm quite sure this is where i'm going to head., if i get it.

OH i can't wait to graduate!!!!!

okay, back to my einstein world of quantum weirdness...

"the call of God"

[from utmost.org]

Christ did not send me to baptize, but to preach the gospel . . . —1 Corinthians 1:17

Paul states here that the call of God is to preach the gospel. But remember what Paul means by “the gospel,” namely, the reality of redemption in our Lord Jesus Christ. We are inclined to make sanctification the goal of our preaching. Paul refers to personal experiences only by way of illustration, never as the end of the matter. We are not commissioned to preach salvation or sanctification— we are commissioned to lift up Jesus Christ (see John 12:32).

It is an injustice to say that Jesus Christ labored in redemption to make me a saint. Jesus Christ labored in redemption to redeem the whole world and to place it perfectly whole and restored before the throne of God. The fact that we can experience redemption illustrates the power of its reality, but that experience is a byproduct and not the goal of redemption. If God were human, how sick and tired He would be of the constant requests we make for our salvation and for our sanctification. We burden His energies from morning till night asking for things for ourselves or for something from which we want to be delivered! When we finally touch the underlying foundation of the reality of the gospel of God, we will never bother Him anymore with little personal complaints.


The one passion of Paul’s life was to proclaim the gospel of God. He welcomed heartbreak, disillusionment, and tribulation for only one reason— these things kept him unmovable in his devotion to the gospel of God.

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may i be committed to proclaim the gospel of God and not be overly dependent on my experience of redemption. thank God for the reminder that the world is much bigger than I.

my prayed about plan after graduation!! [from gen12ii.cru.sg] 


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Cambodia Humanitarian
Dates: 11 – 21 June
Cost: $1200


As a result of the Pol Pot regime some twenty years ago, much of the Kingdom of Cambodia is still in the process of picking up the broken pieces. ‘With Christ on the Road’, a ministry based in northwest of Cambodia (Battambang), you get to work with ten primary schools to provide physical and educational needs of the children in the villages. This ministry also supports 6 very poor families with their basic needs of food and clothes. Come and share Christ’s love in a real and practical way!

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counting down to the day of graduation!!!!!! am so happy just thinking about it..

alright, back to reality here.


thanksgiving and prayer requests for this week:

-grandpa's going for surgery on monday. pray that the doctors will be blessed with wisdom and careful hands in treating his hernia. grandpa's (not so) secretly afraid. supposed to go to grandma's place on the day of surgery to take care of grandma, as grandpa instructed.
-ability to catch up with work in school and balance the preparation time set aside for bible study and sunday school. no matter how i prioritise my items, i rebelliously never follow them.
-continued good health-- thank God for sustaining me during CNY when i started to feel funny in the throat.
-thank God for fruitful cook-outs at my friends' places. from krapao muu to shepherd's pie, i'm feeling peace and joy counting the blessings through friends that God has placed in my life. good way to start the year. and i've accomplished one new year resolution already! oh yeah!!!
-thank God for peace amidst tons of different troubles and annoyances i face. i realise how stupidly trivial these things are in the light of the glory of Christ that we should be looking forward to. i can't wait to see what God has in store for my life after i graduate. there're so many promises He's give to me i know i can count on.

would like to quote 'MY IDENTITY IN CHRIST' from the book my sis and jiaching are doing with me. i love this so much and i'm super assured through my QT today too that God loves me and that's all that really matters in life no matter what others may do or say to me.

Because of Christ's redemption, 

I am a new creation of great worth. 

I am deeply loved, 

completely forgiven, 

fully pleasing, 

totally accepted by God,
and absolutely complete in Christ. 

There has never been another person like me

in the history of mankind, 

nor will there ever be. 

God has made me an original, 

one of a kind, really somebody!

amen!!! i'm really worth something to Him!!! :) and so are you, my friends!!

Look Again and Think

[taken from www.utmost.org]

Do not worry about your life . . . —Matthew 6:25

A warning which needs to be repeated is that “the cares of this world and the deceitfulness of riches,” and the lust for other things, will choke out the life of God in us (Matthew 13:22). We are never free from the recurring waves of this invasion. If the frontline of attack is not about clothes and food, it may be about money or the lack of money; or friends or lack of friends; or the line may be drawn over difficult circumstances. It is one steady invasion, and these things will come in like a flood, unless we allow the Spirit of God to raise up the banner against it.

“I say to you, do not worry about your life . . . .” Our Lord says to be careful only about one thing-our relationship to Him. But our common sense shouts loudly and says, “That is absurd, I must consider how I am going to live, and I must consider what I am going to eat and drink.” Jesus says you must not. Beware of allowing yourself to think that He says this while not understanding your circumstances. Jesus Christ knows our circumstances better than we do, and He says we must not think about these things to the point where they become the primary concern of our life. Whenever there are competing concerns in your life, be sure you always put your relationship to God first.

“Sufficient for the day is its own trouble” (Matthew 6:34). How much trouble has begun to threaten you today? What kind of mean little demons have been looking into your life and saying, “What are your plans for next month— or next summer?” Jesus tells us not to worry about any of these things. Look again and think. Keep your mind on the “much more” of your heavenly Father (Matthew 6:30).

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I thank God for Cynthia who's taught me, since the day I knew her, that my happiness in life doesn't have to depend on food or clothes or how much money I have left. She's unlike most people I know, living each day contented with the little but sufficient amount that God provides for her. I find that in such situations where we live on just enough to get by, our trust in God grows and reliance on Him is only ever evident. It's like how God provided food and told the Israelites not to store them, because He'll provide for them every single day.

This gave me the thought that if we keep storing things up, it makes us less reliant on God to provide for us because we think we can do a better job in keeping ourselves alive. God can definitely do better than merely keep us alive. While He's giving us a purpose to live a full life, we're here trying to find security in the storing up of earthly "necessities". So like the title of the devotional says- let's look again at our storerooms and think about what we're actually doing with our lives.


-On an unfortunate sidenote, I've misplaced 'soul cravings'. When I do find it again, I'll write about it as promised.-